futile
i am a person who has done things without knowing wat i want to be since childhood..i wouldnt say i have never been ambitious,but its more like i have always preferred having my ambitions dished out to me..if i knw i have to do something,there is a better chance i might do it,but i cant think of that path for myself al by myself..
as i said in my previous post,i have never rely wanted to be an engineer,i dont think i care bout being a manager or anything much..the only reason i would like to do an mba is because i knw its maybe my last shortcut to making it big..
i heard bout this guy a few days ago..he gave up everything n took off on a bicycle on a world tour..that is one person who has truly impressed me..
for the last few weeks i have been thinking evrything i have done,or would do is futile..there is no purpose for which i want to be rich..i would be happy if only i could find something i rely wanted to do,n then do it,even i cant earn much..
the only things i have any heart for doing r adventurous stuff like wildlife photography,or that cycle dude..really want to do something like that..these r things that have not been dished out to me,these r things i thought of myself,n when i heard bout that guy,it gave me hope..it made me feel,it is possible to live like that..
now my pursuits r no longer so futile..they r stil futile,but not so futile..
i have a "CUNNING" plan..i am doing al this so i can earn enough by the age of 32 to do wat i want.i wil earn enough so i can sustain myself for the rest of my life..
now isnt that worth something?
one day i wil ride away into the sunset on my bicycle too. :-)
amen.